Join me in my weight loss journey! I am 46 years old, and I have decided it is my time now. My goal is to lose 100 lbs. I wasn’t overweight as a child, teen, or young adult. I was comfortable for the most part in my 5’7” body wearing a size 10 or size 12 clothes, and yes, there were times I wished I was a bit smaller. I got married at 28, started a position as an assistant principal in rather large middle school and was working on my doctorate degree. I was happy, challenged by new career, and put my heart, soul, and lots of time into my work. I remember going to the school cafeteria ladies telling them I was having a stressful day and I would like extra ala carte of mash potatoes or some other comfort food entrée. On the nights my husband worked the late shift, I stopped by fast food on my way home because I had had a busy and stressful day so I deserved it. That’s what I told myself : )
This why I am going to try Advocare
The pounds started to creep on little by little. After moving to another state for my husband’s job, taking another job as an administrator, adopting a child who was age 5, being a foster parent to several children, and then going through a variety of fertility treatments, having a son at 35, then a miscarriage, then another son at the 37, I had gained 70 lbs. I didn’t enjoy shopping for clothes, and I would talk myself out of buying many outfits because I would convince myself I would be losing weight soon and then I would buy more clothes in the new size.
After another move, becoming a stay at home mom, and then back to work as a private school and preschool director, I gained another 30 lbs. It wasn’t until I attended a Celebrate Recovery class at my church with a friend who was going through some tough times, that I came out of denial and realized I wasn’t eating simply because I love to eat and I enjoy the taste of food – no, the reality was I had a food addiction. While others struggled with other vices, I ran to food when I was stressed, as a reward, when I was tired, when I overwhelmed, etc. There’s nothing like the content feeling of a full tummy of one of the many comfort foods.
I tried a variety of diets – counting points, keeping track of calories, cutting out carbs, and trying to eat raw food vegan. I am sure there are some of you who can identify with the war that occurs in your head when you are headed to a restaurant or preparing your favorite food. It truly feels like there is a little devil and angel sitting on each of your shoulders. I can pretty much justify anything I put in my mouth, but if I am honest, I know I am only kidding myself.
Now my children are 19, 10, and 9 years old. I have recently stopped working, and I know this is my time now! I know God wants me to take better care of the body (ok, He calls it a temple)that He gave me. I want to be able to take my kids to the pool and actually wear a swimsuit and swim or ride roller coasters and not be concerned that I can’t breathe in the harness or fit in the wooden roller coaster seats. I want to be able to ride bikes with my kids, go to water parks, ice skate, ski, or roller skating – all the things I would do when I was younger, thinner, and not afraid of hurting myself. I want to try something a new outfit on and look in the mirror and like what I see.
I intend to focus on myself and my health and this is why I am going to try AdvoCare
I have taken my measurements, I have an initial weight, I have joined a gym (that’s a whole other story for another time : ), and I am going to take the 24 day Advocare challenge. The Spark energy drink has really helped me to have the energy to get through the first 20 minutes of shock, I mean cardio workout, in whatever crazy class is offered at 9:00 a.m. at the local gym : ) I have a friend who meets me at the gym – which I might add is a great thing to have that accountability. It’s easier to make yourself go when you know you will let your friend down if you don’t show up.