Remembering: A Final Good-Bye
As I sit here alone in my bedroom I can barely see my computer screen. My eyes are filled with tears and my heart aches with sadness. My phone rang at 2:00 a.m. this morning (Sunday); it was my husband who was working out of town for the weekend telling me that his mother had just passed away. Dazed from sleep I muddled through the conversation desperately wanting to be with him at that moment. As I fell back into my bed, alone in the quiet of my home my mind filled with memories, regrets and a desire to have seen my mother in law just one more time. We had just visited with her in April (27th) and our time together was sweet and happy; for that I am grateful. It wasn’t always that way and today the first day in a world without her physical presence in our lives the emotions have taken over. When I left her that last time she asked me to come back soon and I promised I would. Little did I know that in just over a month I would be planning that return trip only this time to say a final good-bye. While our time as mother and daughter-in-law was not always ideal I am thankful for forgiveness, grace and renewal of our relationship. I used to shudder when people would call me Mrs. Robey because that sounded odd to me; Mrs. Robey was older than me and that was her title. Today it became mine. So as we prepare this week to say our final good-byes and begin life without her in our physical presence I find it necessary to share my words from October 17, 2011 in her memory.
Rest in peace sweet lady; know that I am grateful for second chances and the presence of you in my life.
I think we all need a touch point a place we can go to be inspired. Karla is my children’s teacher, a good friend, and a person with a heart of gold. I hope that her words will inspire you to do more. We are only as good as the people we surround ourselves with. It is important to listen with your heart and proceed with your eyes open. Enjoy!